Unborn Letters

Dear Baby,

Though I haven't heard your heartbeat and you haven't heard my voice yet, I just want you to know that you are loved. So very loved. Your mama is the best mama you could have picked, Little One. She worries about you every single day and gets so nervous that she's going to lose you. She reads to you and talks to you and smiles for you. She handles the morning sickness you give her like a champ because she knows it's a tiny price to pay to one day soon get to hold you in her arms. You are her everything and she will never stop loving you or being there for you no matter what.

I love you, too and I can't wait to meet you. I've seen pictures of you inside your mom. You're still so tiny, but you are fully formed. Now you just need to get bigger. We don't know if you're a girl or a boy yet, but it hardly matters. You are going to be so beautiful. Your mom is absolutely stunning and your dad is definitely not ugly. I hope I get to hear your heartbeat soon. I hope I get to see you wiggle around on an ultrasound. I hope I get to feel your little kicks and stretches when you get big enough.

You see, I love your mama more than I have ever loved anyone, but I messed up and didn't give her the attention she deserved and she broke up with me. So I'm not there to watch you grow, even though your mama and I had plans to raise a family together. It's a strange situation, but I want you to know that I still love you with all of my heart and I will still do everything I can - and everything your mama allows - to be there for both you and your mama. What brought you into this existence doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that you exist. You are already the most breathtakingly amazing thing I have ever seen. I can't understand how your dad doesn't want you.

Don't worry though, Baby. I am going to win your mama back. Your dad may not want you, but I've got enough love for both you and your mama that you will never know the difference. Your mama and you have my heart. You always will. Both of you. One day your mama will realize that there's no one in this entire planet that could possibly love her the way that I love her, and when she does, I'll be there waiting.

Always,

Me